I'm finding that the more I take time to really pause and appreciate what I have, the happier I am, and then the more I find to appreciate, and so on and so forth. It's a vicious, but delightful, cycle.
I think I spent a disproportionate amount of my youth feeling like a victim, worried about all the things others had that I was lacking -- a peaceful home life, more money, a better body, a boyfriend, better clothes, a larger and cooler circle of friends -- that now I feel it's time to make up for that and start basking in what I have.
And I have a lot.
When my 4th grade students have trouble coming up with ideas, I urge them to write it all down -- no order, no judging, no worries. So that's what I shall do for you now. Randi's Thankful List, great and small, trivial and important, in no particular order. Here goes!
I'm thankful for:
- An amazing kid. The best kid I've ever met. A kid who makes me laugh constantly and awes me daily. More than I dreamt about -- and boy did I dream.
- An amazing husband. Kind, loving, sexy, smart, hilarious. More than I dreamt about -- and boy did I dream.
- A wonderful family, a family that's been through so much and is only stronger because of it. Renewed, changing, adapting relationships with each of them -- Mom, Dad, Kerry, Jason, Nora.
- Nieces and nephews and cousins who push the boundaries of adorable. Daniel, Claire, Bethany, Sophia, Samantha, Kaitlyn, Gunner, Zander -- I love them all so much!
- Wonderful in-laws -- loving and funny and accepting of their crazy daughter/sister-in-law.
- A dishwasher. A dishwasher that's working just in time for Thanksgiving!
- An apartment that has no crazy moron living above it. And new landlords that are decent human beings.
- A job. A job I adore and will always adore. Let's call it a career, then. A career about which I'm passionate.
- Opportunities to write and perform, and the confidence to do so.
- Being in my 30's, surviving everything that came before and finally feeling comfortable in my skin.
- My health and the health of those I love.
- Pumpkin pie. Which will be consumed tomorrow. In mass quantities.
- Having a husband who's a talented financial planner, so even though he's unemployed I know we're secure.
- Stella's improved sleep. It's not perfect, it'll never be perfect, but after what we endured, we'll never take it for granted again.
- Incredible friends who are there for us -- there to celebrate, there to lend a hand, there to lend an ear, there to babysit.
- Stella's daycare. Lovely workers, sweet kids, Stella loves it.
- Flannel sheets.
- Bourbon. Zinfandel and cabernet sauvingnon. Stouts, porters, and amber ales. Coffee. Spiced apple cider. Hot chocolate, when I'm feeling particularly naughty.
- My chef's knife. My food processor. My new, very sharp grater. The growing repertoire of delicious, easy, cost-effective recipes.
- Facebook. I love Facebook. I love spying on others' lives. Especially their pictures.
- My neighbors and their adorable offspring.
- The ability to visit my family in Kentucky and escape New York.
- The ability to have family visit me and show off New York.
- Having a husband who picks me and Stella up in the car now that he's not working and on crappy days like today.
- Not having to travel on Thanksgiving!
There are so many more, but I worry I'd be pushing the boundaries of schmaltz if I go any further. I will post pictures of our food-stravaganza tomorrow at a later day. I hope you have a lovely Thanksgiving with you and yours!